showered!

This Saturday was my baby shower and before you go thinking that it was just another typical baby shower, let me say that it was not. It was a totally awesome BBQ baby shower, also known as the BaByQ. There were burgers, jalapenos filled with cream cheese and wrapped in bacon, oreo truffles, and booze. Also otter pops, but I think I was the only person that ate those since it was actually cool out and no one was suffering from heat stroke except for me.

It was truly the ideal shower for me because I get nervous and make bad jokes when I'm the center of attention. And really does anyone, mother-to-be included, enjoy sitting and opening all the gifts in front of the guests? Is it just me or is that a weird custom? Also baby games make my skin crawl. "Hey, I'm feeling really fat and cow like! Let's all guess how big I am! That totally won't kill the last bits of self esteem that I have!" Wow, am I ever a bitter person.

Lots of our friends at the BBQ asked if I felt ready for the baby and I had to admit that sometimes I do feel ready but those times tend to get beaten into submission by the times when I realize that oh holy hell, a baby will be living with me soon. A baby that needs to be fed, changed, and bathed. Since I have the best friends ever, they were quick to tell me that jparks and I will be great parents, which makes my hormone filled brain go fuzzy and possibly makes tears fill my eyes. It's one thing to hear jparks repeatedly tell me that we'll be good parents, but it's another to have people that aren't legally required to tell me that say it.

One friend likes to remind me that 16 year olds in high school bathrooms are giving birth and raising babies and if they can do it, then I'll be fine. Since I like to take things as far as I can, I've started tivo'ing MTV's new show "16 and Pregnant" because it eases some of my fears. My other favorite show is "I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant" which causes me to hate myself for not being able to remove it from my tivo's to do list. Both of these shows make me feel like I'm bound to be a good mother because A) I'm not 16 and fighting with my baby daddy about if we should spend money on formula or getting the kid's name tattooed across our chests and B) because I'm well aware that I have a baby inside of me, am getting prenatal care, and won't go to the bathroom one day only to look down and find a baby in the toilet.

And speaking of being a good mother, I may not know how to bath or swaddle the kid when he gets here, but he will have the freaking cutest socks ever. Also jparks is now the proud (extremely proud) owner of a diaper dude bag so really we're 100% set for parenthood.